I have asked myself that question many times over the last
15 years or so. I have my ear lobes pierced and the cartilage at the top of
both ears pierced. And once upon a time I had my tongue pierced for many years
and my belly button, too. I’ve let those two piercings go over the years, but
there was one more piercing that I sat on for many moons, and that was my nose.
After 10 years of debate, I finally made the decision (with the support of some
amazing people) to finally have it done.
I had some reservations about it. At first, my husband wasn’t
on board, but after having a long heartfelt discussion recently, he gave me reassurance
that it would be ok with him. Then I was also back and forth on how big of a
hole would be left behind when I do take it out (I researched that topic and
was satisfied with what I read) and most importantly, would it offend anyone in
my family. I made the decision to use a temp for a few days just to give my
kids a visual of what I would look like with my nose pierced. Surprisingly, my
kids were not very inquisitive about it. In fact, it didn’t bother them at all.
If it would have been something that would have freaked my kids out, I would
never have done it, but they definitely gave me a bright green light. In their
own way, it was like they said, “Mom, we will love you anyway. Just do what
makes you happy”, and so I did.
I have my reasons for having it done, mostly because I
personally think it’s cute and unique to me. I have always been one to express
myself through my appearance whether it’s been piercings, coloring or styling my
hair a certain way, make-up or my clothing choices. I’ve tamed it down a lot since
I have gotten married, but I started to feel like I wasn’t being completely
true to myself. My punk rock goddess has been screaming to come out for quite
some time. Granted, I can’t go running around dressed like my inner Gwen
Stefani anymore because I am getting older (blah), but there are things I can
do to tap into my edgy side and still show the world that I am a loving wife
and mother despite my appearance. It really does sadden me that people base
their judgments of others solely on how they choose to look.
I am loyal to my role as wife and mother, but I also have a
very significant need to not forget about who I am and what makes me tick, so
with the support of my loving husband and amazing friends, I finally gave into
my edginess and got my nose pierced. It’s not about rebellion or being out of
control or losing my mind or even trying to relive my “glory days”. It’s all
about showing the world the woman that I am…A fun-loving, edgy, Christian wife and
mother who happens to still thoroughly enjoy rocking out to 90’s alternative
while cooking dinner, cleaning the house and rocking my daughter. It doesn’t
make me a bad person in any way shape or form. It just makes me, well…me.
Thanks to all who played a role in this little adventure of mine,
whether I have had deep heartfelt conversations with you about it or if you actually
showed up for the occasion to either cheer me on or just happened to pierce
your nose with me (couldn’t have asked for a better person to do this with than
YOU), y’all know who you are, and I love you deeply for being so accepting of
me and not casting judgment just because I want to be myself. You guys rock my
socks!!!
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